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| my living pattern is like way to weird these days...
i can't sleep, probably b/c of the caffeine tonight...
i really miss ian/want to talk to him, but my phone broke and it's too late anyway
i have a lot a lot to do.. but i can't get into them
my body is really itchy.. the allergy this season is really bad!
i m so tired and have so much going on i don't know how to start
i need to appreciate my life more.
at sunday supper tonight, the speaker said something about... living = happiness.
i should use more positivity (is that even a word) in my life. LIFE. i should be happy that i am alive and i can do things independently. whether i do them or not is up to me. there should be NO LIMIT. and everything is worth trying (even evil things but most of us should choose not to do them) ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
i need to get things togetherrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
soh.
what would mom say right now? GO TO SLEEP
what would ian say? do 1 thing at a time! tomorrow will be better.
well, it's not like today was bad, but i really do hope so.. oh wait. it IS tomorrow already.
sleepy time i guess.
hrm, i am not the only one. annie can't sleep either
but she's doing work and i'm just wasting time.. SIGH.
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| as i get older, it becomes more clear to me that money is such an important issue in life...
your appearance comes after that...
the world is a shallow place.
pharmacy school --> work --> loan + house --> get in shape to get married
vs.
work--> loan + house --> pharmacy school--> get in shape to get married
the world is also a tiring place.
life is tiring
but of course, i guess, it's worth it...
slept at 12:30am
woke up at 7:30 am
work intensely for a very low pay with no break from 9-3pm
drove 80 miles using up very expensive gas from 4:30-5:45pm oh, and memorizing drug names, singing and talking to myself while driving
laundry + work out +shower 6-8:30
I house social : fondue 9:10-9:35
squeeze fresh lemonade 9:40-9:50
lovely conversation with ian 10:05-10:57
plan life inconclusively (both for stuff w/in a couple weeks to like, for the next year..)+ take a big chunk out of my account for credit card bill + write xanga11-12:05
*had a headache between 8:30-12:07
---> get no school work done
if i don't get my acts together, i will fail the finals.
although i can't remember if i have expressed that this is my happiest quarter at ucsd.
i should probably wake up at 4:30 to get at least 2 hrs of work done before my class at 8:00am
my mom said lil sleep is the reason i get so fat.
(O"O)
sleepy time
anti-androgens: flutamide, finasteride
i forgot to say that i met two new friends at the social
rumiko from japan and yao lung from singapore
i will probably end up going to bed at 12:15.
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i didn't end up waking up til 6:30 when madhavi called (thanks if you're reading!)
i bought my parking permit and got to class on time, the only thing was i had to leave in the middle to put some coins in the meter...
anyways,
i think as we grow older, we are also gradually learning to accept we can't have everything we want even if we've spent a lot of time and effort on the thing you're pursuing.. things might just not work out the way you planned, so you just have to seek alternatives.
with that said,
i'm gonna go study.
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| even though there are variety of things that contribute to a happy life... but i really think most of my happiness these days come from a man who really loves me.  i can feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeel it.
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| ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm yeah
i miss my xanga
but i feel weird writing in it now
i almost feel like i'm not the same person who started this xanga wanga...
hrm
newya
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MADHAVI AND ANNIE
and henry...(hahha that's for you alice, if you happen to stop by)
i have a mixed feeling about birthdays
for everyone it's like a fun celebration
like ppl feel special right
but for mine, it just makes me realize how insignificant these kind of dates are
but then, maybe i refuse to accept..so yarh
*sigh*
study study study
i need more dopamine in me
heh.
pharmacology is mucho fun
so are nutrition, bacteriology and human anatomy
i have great professors this quarter
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| stressed stressed stressed
hope the final on my bday goes ok >.<
then party afterwards
jk, yeah right, i got freaken mo bio
doh
i really appreciate the birthday wishes or thoughtful gifts... i'll take the good wishes, but shouldn't have gotten me anything. i am 22, a BIG girl now... don't need presents...just can't wait til the day i really mature and have my life under my control...
study sucks, but it's good to have friends around me to take some stress off
that was some good random laugh in mo bio review w/ madhavi!
and my roommates are SO funny...<3
k back to the shizzle
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